Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Minsan feeling ko ang supot ng course ko. Hindi naman sa may problema yung course, o hindi quality education ang nakukuha ko. It's just that sometimes when I have nothing to do, I just sit down and wonder why college is so stressful for most of my classmates. I mean, they're our studying their butts off in ME, or MGT-H, or just simply dealing with the harrowing threat of Accounting, and here I am, twiddling my thumbs, waking up at 1 in the morning to do a paper which I probably will get a B or B+ in. The thing is, though that may be a good grade, parang hindi na ata magis ang battlecry ko.
Sometimes I can't help but think if I could have done better in a different course, like Comm, or Comm Tech. I guess I miss the boggled mindset, when all you can do with this specific lesson is just bang your notebook on your head in frustration. As violent as that may have seemed, I miss it. Terribly.
Hindi rin naman sa hindi bagay ang Psychology sa akin. I like Psychology. It's really really interesting for me. It's just that I like so many other things as well. Kaya yun, I still ponder about my decision to go into the course not really considered to be the course to be in if you want to rake in millions. I don't know, maybe it's just me.
Am I doing the more Ateneo is asking me of? Parang hindi kasi eh. I'm immersing myself in the co-curriculars, but sometimes, it's not enough for me.
Or maybe it is just me. I just want to matter to the outside world. I can't help but think that I'll be the only one stuck jobless while all my classmates are going to rise up the corporate ladder and I'll be left to pick up their scraps.
Sana talaga maging maayos future ko. And that's not just in the job scene.
It's amazing how a single gesture can just change your whole day. :)
loved // Deens // 2:42:00 AM
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