Saturday, February 25, 2006
Nakakawalang gana magsulat dito. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. I miss my Tabulas. Curse you hacker. Nawalan na rin ako ng gana magsulat dun. Ang rami ko pang gagawin para sa Monday. Pero masaya ako. Wala akong takot na hindi magawa ang kailangan gawin. Hindi ko iniisip ang pagkakaroon ko ng bagsak na marka sa Botany. Hindi ko rin maintindihan kung bakit. Siguro nga iba ang Ateneo High School sa pagtuturo sa amin na ang mundo ay puno ng kahirapan at kailangan talagang bumagsak upang umahon. Umaaraw, umuulan. When it rains, there will always be a rainbow after it. Palaging mag pagkakataong bumawi sa mga pagkakamali ng kahapon. Parating may buhay sa bawat pagkamatay. Parating may pag-asa kahit na nahanap mo ang iyong sarili sa kalagitnaan ng kadiliman. Nandiyan ang ilaw, kahit na maliit na butas lamang. Nandiyan ang pagkakataong tumiwalag sa kamay ng kasamaan. Buhay ka. Nandiyan ka. Ayan ang sitwasyon, ayan ang pagkakataon. Tumawa ka. Umiyak ka. Ngumiti ka. Magwala ka. Lumangoy ka sa ilog ng buhay na binigay ng Diyos. Kasi kung papayagan mo ang iyong sarili na malunod, walang tutulong sa iyo. Kung ipakita mo na wala nang pag-asa, walang aasa sa iyo. Ang gulo ng sinulat ko noh. That was just my first crack at writing in Filipino. Maybe I'll just stuck to writing in English.
Let the rain fall I don't care.
loved // Deens // 8:58:00 PM
Holy shit ang raming gagawin for Monday. What's worse is I hate the teacher I have to make it for.
COOLLEGE. I'm terrified. But happy. And content. But still terrified. In the end though, it's what's in the middle that counts.
loved // Deens // 1:35:00 PM
Friday, February 24, 2006
http://kevan.org/johari?name=Alcool.
Please answer thanks!:):):)
I'm going with the flow. :)
loved // Deens // 5:46:00 PM
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
I don't understand how people can say one thing and do another. I remember only having examples for verbal irony in plays but it has just come to me that it is very applicable in everyday life.
loved // Deens // 12:31:00 AM
Thursday, February 16, 2006
It's very refreshing to just sit back, relax and sing your heart out loud with 3 people you've grown close to just because of a Filipino report. From Intramuros and back, we managed to sing close to about a hundred songs, ranging from boy bands to oldies to reggae, and even to weird spoofings of songs. It was pure, clean fun and I wouldn't have it any other way.
I have nothing to do for today and yet I'm still in the computer lab in Ateneo making this entry. It's funny how I've never been home any earlier than 7 o clock and yet I live next to Ateneo. I don't like going home, because it's too boring there. I can't take the silence and I might be tempted to sleep the whole night. Here, I can make the most out of my time, even though I don't usually do productive things.
I just won as Sac-Se head. Oh no. More work. But, it's probably going to be something great and worthwhile. I just have to promise myself that I should not overload. Then again, immersing myself in work seems to awaken me to do things better. I've been getting better grades recently, and I can attribute this to my busy schedule. I guess I'm in love with work even though sometimes even I don't know it.
Everyone's been obsessed with the Johari window nowadays. What's up with that? Haha. It's like getting a adjective for a testimonial. I'll try it sometime. Yes, the defier of the status quo yields to society most of the time.
And finally, God you're an exception to the rule. I love you. :):)
loved // Deens // 5:53:00 PM
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Due to difficulties in my main site, I will be blogging here from now on. It will take some time to get used to, but I guess I have to make do with what I have.
I'm getting used to pressure now. I believe I can do anything in a span of 24 hours. This is proof that we have so much extra time on our hands and we just do not maximize the chances we get to finish what we have to do. It's actually pretty exciting to do work in a short amount of time. I'm not saying I guarantee optimal results (ergo there's a chance for mediocrity), but it just goes to show how much you can do if pressed with the amount of time. This isn't an excuse to slack off. I'm just saying you can if put into that situation.
I feel as if my grades will go up this term with the exception of Botany. My own mother has even told me that she wouldn't mind if I just got a D. And that's my mother, who has constantly reiterated that I should strive for better grades in College. Twisted.
I still can't believe someone hacked into my account. That's really funny. It just goes to show how many crazy people are in this world.
loved // Deens // 6:26:00 PM
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
There's just something about this whole College experience that I find very interesting. I mean, I'm swamped with work and God knows how much I'm trying, and I'm failing some subjects (check that, ONE subject BOTANY), but I still manage to keep this smile plastered on my face at the end of the day. Sometimes I wonder how long it'll take for me to feel the pressure mounting, when there will come a time that I won't have this grin smeared on my face at the end of the day.
I long to find my limit.
I challenge the world to give me its best shot. Maybe then I'll be pressed to give it mine. And this, I believe, is my flaw. It's easy to stay confident when you know there will be a lot more chances to make things better. It's easy to say that there will always be a tomorrow. It's easy to keep believing when there are lots of reasons to. It's easy to live when dying is not an option just yet. I need to find myself in that situation.
To do, or die. That is what I need. I need to cringe, shrink, and get humbled. I need to fall down and have a hard time getting back up. I need to fail. I need to cry and feel that the whole world is against me before I do something. Sadly, that is what I think I need. I need someone to send me crashing back down to earth. I feel too cocky. I need change. I want change. But I hate changing. That is the irony of my psyche. I can't accept change but I want to change.
Off to Math I go.
loved // Deens // 9:51:00 PM
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